Merdeka workshop.

Merdeka! Merdeka! yes, is 31Aug2013.  Malaysia - 56th Birthday

Is a public holiday and of course everybody is lying & rolling on bed trying our best not to wake up so early. However, my workshop is on going in this public holiday. Stop rolling here and there, wake up lu~

so i wake up, preparing to bath. hoho!!! water le? y no water come out ?!!! not again~!!! aiz. luckily there's water downstair. water in selangor was being polluted. hence, water supply might be interrupted... okay... i decided to get myself some mineral water. worst come to worse, if cannot bath at least i have water to drink and brush teeth right. so i went to ss2 to look for mineral water... wow! all sold out! then i went tropicana mall. i saw people using trolling to load boxes and boxes of mineral water. i told myself, "i think i can get 1 box of mineral water gua." walked into BIG... mineral water all sold out. i can't even get 1 bottle to drink?! okay, since then, i turn myself to toiletry department. i bought detol wet tissue, Listerine, sanitizer and eye drop. was thinking, if there's no water to bath, at least i can use them to support my hygienic.. that's it, i know i will never get any mineral water in pj area in this "horrifying"  peak period haha. so i drove off to lrt and parked my car there. moving myself to KL. to my surprise, no one think of buying mineral water in lrt kioks...there's still alot. i bought 2 small bottle to quench my thirst. maybe later when i return from KL, i will get a box home.

Putting a mask up is a abnormal practice in Malaysia. yes, trust me, it is. Those unknown will stare at you with no purpose and scan you from top to toe like a ALIEN standing in front of them like that. Aiz. Just wanna protect myself 'jek', no need to scan me like that la.. annoying!

the workshop
i have been planning to attend this workshop long time ago. and finally i make it. i decided not to drive during this public holiday. Somemore, parking rate in KL is kinda shocking. Hence, i decided to take monorail - Jalan Imbi.

my favourite piece: i named it - the silent freedom

earing: nothing special. learning the basic skill to hook everything up. 

this thing looks very ah neh neh (indian). however, it looks good when you wearing it with plain dark colour singlet or t-shirt. i named it: the Persian twist.

There's only 2 of us in the workshop. im having so much fun doing my own bracelet, necklace and earings. these are the most basic skill to start doing jewellery design. i have fall in love in creating accessories. Planning to go for immediate class to learn more. hopefully i can do my own design one day.. hehe.

I have had a great Saturday and merdeka holiday ever. Happy =)
oh yea, i manage to buy 10 bottles of mineral water home. y din i buy 1 box? coz, ... is too heavy to carry a box of mineral water from lrt station to my car la... ~

Doc, im coming!

continuously updating your blog is not a simple task. true? yea, when u feel like lazy to type but to lay on the bed and sleep, this might be the best excuse not to update your blog - "im veli busy, veli veli tired!"

5 weeks passed. im still diagnosing what exactly happen in my body. Gastric, yea, i still having pain while eating. but recently i found out something weird, when only i eat Carbo, i get the pain, the rest seem fine. Am i recovering? im not pretty sure. But, i hope my soldier in my stomach are hardworking enough to fix the 2 little wound. medicine still on going for 1 month. hope everything will be okay. However, the scariest test is coming next week, where im having my mouth biopsy. doc told me after the little cut, i will not able to talk and eat like normal for a week!!! WHAT! FOR A WEEK!... and it is risky to do test where it gives side effects where some lump might grow inside your mouth which needed surgery to clear them off. but, if not doing the test, doc will never diagnose the exact sickness.. A double head knife is going to poke into my mouth soon!!! im afraid, im nervous, i don't wanna do this. but, i HAVE NO CHOICE!!!!

Anyway, anything happens, it happened. Accept, accept and accept. tiring dealing with all medical terms, medicine and docs. However, life must go on right? that's how everybody says. its been 9months fighting for all these. hopefully i would be strong enough to continue the fight. everything will be just fine. Everyday is a gift from god to us, appreciate and move forward. yea! Doc, im coming!

痛

今天，一个人吃饭吃一半时，我哭了。胃还在痛。为什么我那么相信，那么努力，你还是好不起来。我害怕别人问我胃还会痛吗？我还是没有好起来。快一个月了。我该怎么做。我一直以为只要相信，就能好。可是，我连一点好转都感觉不到。而在这样的时候，我只能一个人面对。我很伤心，很担心，很痛苦。我到底作错了什么。

生病了

瘦了整整4kg。生活还是得继续。生病有8个月了，现在我被查出autoimmune system 不正常已经有两周了。身体很不听话，胃里查出有ulcer，还有两个白色不明来源，报告下星期才能看。今天，吃东西还是再痛，看到喜欢的食物，一放到口里就开始觉得不安。ulcer 有3个星期了，没有好转，是不是immunesystem 的缘故，它不能自己愈合？我很担心，那天test 开始了，要diagnose 真正的原因，我只能耐心地做完每一个test。医生告诉我，这样会维持数个星期以上。现在目前做了hepatitis C， ANA, ENA test. 报告要等星期二。上网查看了很多资料，越看越害怕。终于，我找来了一个朋友，向他倾诉。我很怕，很怕这样的过程。虽然我已经作好了心里准备，这会是我终生的病症，我还是没办法接受我的人生从那一刻开始，完全改变。我不能再拥有以往的健康，很多事情也得小心处理。我一直告诉自己我会好起来，可是今天，我diarrhea, 右侧有些隐隐作痛。我严重了吗？尽管我有多么地不去想，可是，那感觉骗不了人。我害怕，但没人能理解。说出口，也改变不了什么。这样的恐惧，我该如何面对。

我告诉自己要加油，我不让自己去查看更多的资料。我只能这样。我要加油。也希望我认识的所有人能健康。我失去了健康。我希望大家可以珍惜。 愿佛祖能保佑我的病症能赶快查出来，让我可以减少最多的痛苦。我会加油，也不会放弃。

至我尊敬的哥哥，拥有一个健康的身体不是必然的，上天给了你一些，就会要回一些。你既然有一个健康的身体，就不要让烟酒糟蹋它。妹妹我虽然一直都很照顾身体，可是，还是被病魔看上。我已经不能拥有这些了，我希望你能尽快把他们丢掉。我要好起来！