Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Dehydration - I'm having fever

Dear dad
I wish I'm by your side
Thinking of you make me cry
Never being able to say i love you
hurting me so hard every day goes by

Dear mom
Stories that i have heard
To my eyes they bring me tears
Before I'm able to calm you down
I wish you would had realized

Dear sis
mom lets me know how much she kept silence
Since I was the youngest to have no right to talk louder
Listening sadness of her I wish to know
Why so terrible my sis has gone

Dear diary
Embarrassing thing-y that she did
So hard a mom has to stand for it
Hearing about it makes my heart hurt
I just hoped the time has ended years ago

Coz I know it was a heart breaking memory
I'm sad that it's happened
I miss the happy moment which i lost it forever



 






image retrieved: google.com

Catchup with a cold woke up early in the morning at 5am today.
Fever and headache, felt dizzy once step in to the tutorial class.
4 tablets of panadol have been taken, but still feeling sick. 
Felt tired wishing to lye down immediately. but, animation is still an issue. 

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Optimal MidValley

Finally, i got my specs. Headache for the whole week and finally i got my specs!!.  astigmatism: left - increased from 25 to 50++; right eye - increased from 0 to 25++ and SS for about 25++ for each eyes (that optician said the power for SS is still very mild) but, somehow, i do had a great headache for the whole week. thanks for the stupid computer. haha. it is annoying to wear a specs. but, no choice, i have to. =.=!

I'm planning to go for Optical 88 which recommended by my brother. but, i was so "lucky" to see the outlet at mid valley was under renovation. what the~ and there i told myself, i have to get the specs on the day instead. hence, i went to this - "Optimal" 

Optimal - pusat optik. I never know that's such brand in Malaysia. ha, till today. 

the container for my specs. it's not nice. 

my specs. half frame in silver

Surprisingly, this Optimal is not bad. They offered me a better lenses that come with 1 year warranty.  (erm, i have been told by the optician saying that the lenses is not bad wan wor) and i'm quite satisfied with the services la.

And today, i went to midvalley again with eines to collect my specs. rm300 gone! haha. Met my ex-colleagues as well during their lunch time. Ally has cut her hair short. Michelle, ping Ping and Fatt are still the same. Very nice person they are. Asking me to go back 180 to work as Account Exec. Hmm... will it be good if i apply a job as an AE? hahaa. let's think about it properly. 

Monday, March 29, 2010

人最终的destiny是离开


前言:生活也只为了让自己有个完整的结束。伤害别人得到的胜利,你赢了吗?单靠一张脸,别人能了解你多少,你又能看透自己多少?


问:四年前的今天,有过梦吗?
答:谁不会有梦。
问:是什么?
答:曾幻想,四年后的今天,会是怎样的一个人。广播人是是我至今的梦。可是,今天,我依然还在梦里。
问:想再为自己的梦做些什么吗?
答:想。好容易。做。好遥远。打量下自己,除了那份心,好像都没有任何可贵的条件了。很可悲吧。
问:有心不怕迟。
答:生活得越久,就会发现,梦, 其实需要金钱去衬托。没金,梦,免谈。
问:就这样放弃吗?
答:不会,虽然,看起来好远。不过,我还希望会有那么一天。哪怕,需要我一辈子的时间。

问:希望你能。做自己想做的事,是人生最大的快乐。

曾幻想,四年后的今天,会是怎样的一个人

想。好容易。做。好遥远

答:agree. 人最终的destiny 就是离开。我也想在离开之前,让自己有个完整的句点。这是我一直都希望达到的。可是,最近,我发现。有的人,常常执着于过程,而忘了我们最终的destiny。

问:你不开心?
答:以前,一块蛋糕,或一份甜点,绝对可以让自己的心情好起来。今天,我做了同样的动作,可是,感觉变了。
问:怎么了?
答:哭了。我竟然吃着自己最爱吃的蛋糕,哭了。我很难过。很伤心。
问:告诉我。
答:一个人,若不懂得感恩,其实是一件很可悲的事。身边的人都得为你所做的一切吞声忍气。
问:啊?
答:她,要和我划清界限。到底,是怎么一回事。我不懂。我难过。妈妈日日为她奔波,为的又是什么?难道就是一句划清界限,还是伤人的字眼?
问:是sis?
答:从来,懂事开始,我知道,我需要respect。我没有一长善良的脸,当人人都拿你来和我比较时,永远,评语都为反面;你是如此德高望重,我却是走在后头,远远的。
问:她对你怎么了?
答:我了解自己。也接受 “从来坏事都会是我的杰作” 这种眼神。就算,那,不是我所为。这些年来,都一样。我很努力,一直都很努力,我希望自己不要再是带罪羔羊。里里外外,我都很努力,只是,我的努力,却换来一句句的讥笑,讽刺。。昨天,竟是一句“划清界线。”
问:慢慢说。
答:母亲都那么大年纪了,还那么奔波,尽他所能去帮助你,为什么,就不懂得感恩?为什么,要让她哭?为什么, 要让父亲难过?在别人眼里,你是如此乖巧,听话,坏人,都是我啊!我实在不懂。
问:加油!。
答:我害怕回家,害怕面对,担心。天天都在担心。我没有任何理由不去想。没有。我没有力气去说什么道理。心,痛,很难受。可我? 我又有什么能力去阻止?
问:没关系的,要做好你自己。
答:每每伤心的时候,我都会用力地,让自己离开,不去想。可,做不到。回到kl,我整个人都散了,呼吸都没力气了。倒头昏睡。醒来,问题,依然存在。 
问:洗脑咯。haha
答:为什么你还可以这样。我很认真啦。我真的很不开心。
问:其实啊,我不是你,你的心有多痛,我感觉不来。不过,肯定的,现在的你,会比之前的你轻松一点。哪怕是那么一点。
答:懂了。我想睡了。
问:晚安!
给姐姐的话:人最终的destiny是离开,不要执着,快乐地去过每一天,不管途中有多少人让你不满,那也只是路过,它们不会跟随你一辈子,不要再说伤人的话,摊开心胸,接受。


Thursday, March 18, 2010

Pick me up, Tiramisu 我问,你答。

前言:幸福摸不着,挣不来,然,看得见。当人人都在追求真爱瞬间,角落边残留的是那些对爱情失去信心的沙粒。无人问津。

问:曾经,最疯狂的事情,有过吗?

答:疯狂?哈哈。好像都没有做过什么让自己觉得佩服自己的事情。
问:念书的时候也没有过吗?
答:好平静,好充实。都没有多余时间想更多无聊事情。
问:跟朋友呢?初恋?
答:也许有,可都不记得了。所以,现在都很喜欢把相机带在身边,每一刻,都可以记下来。
问:男朋友呢?
答:没有恋爱,何来男朋友啊!哈哈。
问:这不可能。
答:为什么?
问:中学时期的男女最多故事了。难道你没有吗?
答:我的故事都奉献在当初的课外活动上。学业,还好。我不爱念书。剩余的故事也挤在家人身上。有快乐,也就有不愉快的。而最直接的结果,爱情,我没信心。
问:为什么?

答:曾经,我也是会被瞩目的一个人。偶尔,也会动心。不过,当你知道,如果开始就等于结束,我宁愿让它永远保持距离。如果爱是全部,我想,我已经死了。因为,原来,我不懂爱。

最疯狂的事情,有过吗

他是一颗只懂得照亮大地的星,却不是一颗会守护月亮的星

问:有过怎样的经历?

答:远远看着他,你会满足。也有些在搞不起状况之前,就被切歌。有的人,会主动靠近你,让你发觉他。有的更会主动关心你。也有的,让你远远望着,也不会有一点愧疚。
问:远远望着?
答:想想,当艺人是那么地高高在上。只是,当他的光芒开始让你觉得不安。发现,你离他好远好远。原来,他是一颗只懂得照亮大地的星,却不是一颗会守护着月亮的星。你就只能远远地凝望着。
问:这样,都没有开始吗?
答:有始有终。没有开始,就不会有终点。如果没有把握,我,选择自己的生活。做我想做的。看我想看的。听我想听的。
问:不会孤单吗?
答:会。我希望我可以有个他替我分担。不过,不会强求。人都是一个人来,一个人离开的。不会有例外。当时间走到了尽头,我会遗憾,但,也会接受。
问:一点信心都没有吗?
答:身边有太多的人为爱伤痕累累。被虐待,被软禁,被欺骗,离婚,爱情降,破坏美满家庭,离家。。。谁能保证,会有幸福?
问:我希望,这一切,你所见到的都是过去。幸福,会有的。
答:有。我身边,有一对。老夫老妻了,还懂得保温。
问:父母吗?
答:哈哈。他们是老夫老妻。不过,看得出,父亲对母亲的爱胜于母亲对父亲的爱。他们的生活已经是一种习惯了。
问:还要点些什么吗?

答:好啊!tiramisu。

Tiramisu’ - “pick-me-up” in Italian (retrieved from google.com)

后记:她对爱情没有信心,但却还留有一丝的希望。一份tiramisu就是最好的证明。pick me up, 她需要一个全心懂得爱她的人,让她摊开心胸,接受幸福。

Saturday, March 13, 2010

eggVege sandwich

*jiangJiang* money saving week! my dinner today, 

homemade eggVege sandwiches!

my very own recipe... and surprisingly, it tastes good. 

Ingredients:

1 omega fried egg (rm 0.3++),

1 crab stick (rm 0.3++),

cabbage (rm 0.2++),

chili source,

2 slices of whole wheat bread (1 loaf rm 4.0 )









total: around rm1.2++ eggVege Sandwiches








feel full after having this. try it out!

be thankful 感恩的心

作词:陈乐融 作曲:陈志远

我来自偶然像一颗尘土

有谁看出我的脆弱
我来自何方我情归何处
谁在下一刻呼唤我

天地虽宽这条路却难走
我看遍这人间坎坷辛苦
我还有多少爱我还有多少泪
要苍天知道我不认输

感恩的心感谢有你
伴我一生让我有勇气作我自己
感恩的心感谢命运

花开花落我一样会珍惜


中学的日子是快乐的,只要懂得1/2的思考,就可以为所欲为。撞板了,可以回家。受伤了,可以回家。饿了,也可以回家。想安静时,可以自己一个人躲在风琴角。想说话时,永远都会有个人听你说。虽然,那段日子我都是一个人的。也因为初二家里所发生的事,让我对感情完全失去信心。也因为这样,我长大得比别人早。得应付的也比别人多一些。我想家。可却没有勇气让自己一个人回家。我担心爸爸,也想念妈妈,还有奶奶。可是,我却说不出一句爱他们的话。一个人在这里,很想家。

Friday, March 5, 2010

Thanks, Wikignomic

March, the indian month. stef said,"why it is an Indian month?? i'm curious! somebody tell me this." 

and i received a confirmation this morning. as below,

Wikignomic said...

Courtesy of your friendly neighbourhood Wikipedian

"Indian Month" originated on Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=334159414527&ref=ts
As its "official" status is questionable, the statement has been removed from Wikipedia.

March 5, 2010 3:47 AM

"he" gave me such comment. hence, i go to wikipedia to look for it again. true enough, is gone~ 

be sure to filter every single info that collected from the internet. 

Monday, March 1, 2010

march - the Indian Month

March - the third month of the year in the Gregorian Calendar.

The name of March comes from ancient Rome, when March was the first month of the year and named Martius after Mars, the Roman god of war. In Rome, where the climate is Mediterranean, March is the first month of spring, a logical point for the beginning of the year as well as the start of the military campaign season 

According to wikipedia.org March was officially named the Indian Month in the year of 2010. why?? somebody tell me this. i'm curious!.

Do you know... "events in March"

American Red Cross Month
Colorectal Cancer awareness month
Fire Prevention Month (The Philippines)
Women's History Month (United States)
The wearing of a Martenitsa in Bulgaria and Mărţişor in Romania, March 1
Saint David's Day, March 1


National Reading Day (United States), March 2  - stef says, "read, reAD, READ. we should have stayed in the library but not at home now!"

Texas Independence Day, March 2: State holiday in Texas, United States
Mardi Gras (February 3 to March 9 in regular years, February 4 to March 9 in leap years)

Ash Wednesday (February 4 to March 10 in regular years, February 5 to March 10 in leap years) - stef says, " yi?? this is  ANG SIONG HUAT (ASH)'s day~! huat, go and appeal for a holiday from UTAR, this is your day, we av4 should have the privilege!" 

World Maths Day, the 1st Wednesday in March - stef says,"u better calculate everything nicely!"

International Women's Day, March 8 - stef says,"nah, this one i know - 38妇女节" 

Pluto Planet Day (New Mexico), March 13 (discussed here)

White Day(Asia), March 14 - stef says,"i should have buy a white colour shirt for this day!"

Pi Day, March 14 - stef says, "everyone, let's sit in the toilet for the whole day and "Pi (ee)"

Save a Spider Day, March 14 - stef says, "don't be shock when seeing spiderman getting into your room. don't panic, don't hit him, serve him with a great kiss. you are lucky"

The Ides of March, the anniversary of the assassination of Julius Caesar by Brutus, Cassius, Casca and others (March 15)
Anniversary of the 1848 Hungarian Revolution, March 15
Saint Patrick's Day, March 17
Saint Joseph's Day, March 19
The equinox, named the vernal or spring equinox in the northern hemisphere and the autumnal equinox in the southern hemisphere, occurs on dates varying from March 19 to March 21 (in UTC)
Nowruz: New Year's Day in Iran and several other countries; also a holiday in Turkey and Central Asian countries as well, celebrated on the day of the equinox
Good Friday, a Friday between March 20 and April 23, being the last Friday before Easter
Human Rights' Day (South Africa), March 21
Easter, the first Sunday after the first full moon on or after March 21, sometimes in April
World Water Day, March 22
Pakistan Day, March 23
Day of Polish-Hungarian Friendship, March 23
Annunciation, March 25
Celebration of the Greek War of Independence, March 25, 1821
Last day of Japanese fiscal year and school calendar, March 31. Hanami, the traditional Japanese custom of enjoying the beauty of flowers, starts around this time of the year.

it will be a extremely busy month for most of us, the final year student. let's get it done.. nicely!

Events in March retrieved from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/March


i do believe 我相信

 song by: 楊培安

想飞上天  和太阳肩并肩

世界等着我去改变
想做的梦  从不怕别人看见
在这里我都能实现
大声欢笑让 你我肩并肩
何处不能欢乐无限
抛开烦恼  勇敢的大步向前
我就站在舞台中间
我相信我就是我  我相信明天
我相信青春没有地平线
在日落的海边  在热闹的大街
都是我心中最美的乐园
我相信自由自在  我相信希望
我相信伸手就能碰到天
有你在我身边  让生活更新鲜

每一刻都精采万分  i do believe


好久都没有站在舞台上尽情演出了,也没有再高举着mic,

一首接一首歌地唱着。 

想念当年演唱的一刻,我的第一首 shunza 的 “回家”

更想念组团的那一晚,我的第一首 beyond 的 “真的爱你” 与 “大地”

也怀念演奏的一个晚上,我的第一首disney 的 “under the sea"

"我相信我就是我,也相信明天。今天叻?":)