1st PaintingBoard

DIGI BROADBAND - where my life begins.
bought its modem at Digital Mall Digi center yesterday. 
rm68 per month for Internet Discovery.
Glad to be with the Internet again and finally i get some photos of the Anakku Finale day in Cineleisure.
managed to grab some from DatHo.
Thanks to him. 

contestant who sang"My Live will Go On" - very cool girl, never see her smile not even after the competition.
I thought she is a Malay or a mix at first. however, she is a pure Chinese.
She asked for a quick black colour star on her cheek few mins before she got to the stage. 

Dancers of the day. From left - love shapes, butterflies, flowers.
these girls are so freaking excited with their dance and performances.
I see passions of these young spirits in achieving their dream. love them.

this was how the environment is during the last day of this event.

the sweetest voice i have nv heard. twinkle twinkle little star dwi-bahasa Mandarin and english. what a perfect match. there's lotsa small little stars sticked on her outfit. my god adorable. 

she is the girl that make my hair flying. great voice, nice personality. my first "painting board" for face painting. aha. 

see the gesture. haha. sporting, active, cheerful this kid is. Fully influenced by his daddy i guess.

oops... nonono~ dun sing first! wait for the music! his father showed him some informal sign language asking him to wait for the music before start singing. aha. whatever will happen sure happened in such live show. interesting. 

the champion that sang "xiao cao". very smart looking yea. they all look so small standing on the stage. never i will forget such memorable event. aha. 

However, i'm completely broke now. pls someone, ADRIAN Dragon~~ ask your boss to pay us the money!!! money.. money.. money.. money!!!!!

SinarSuara Anakku -GrandFinale Cineleisure

Picture retrieved from darryne 2010July.

淋了一场雨，早上起来冷冷热热地，头有点痛。
最后一天sinar suara anakku Roadshow,在昨天午间的grand finale 圆满结束。
而两个月的parttime也就此告一段落。
这次参与event，收获还可真不薄。碰到许多人，也在outstation期间有机会让久违的同学见个面，聊聊天。
20年前的我们，谈这以后将来的事。
可现在的我们正进行着20年前所谈到的未来。这原来是人们常说的光阴似箭。悟了。

grand FInale 的舞台。3-7yrs old: champion是一个唱‘小草’的小弟弟。8-12yrs old: champion是第一个在sri petaling让我作face painting的马来妹妹。她的歌声真的把我的手毛都唤醒，厉害到~
她还真喜欢作face painting, 哪怕都已经化了妆，准备要上台呈现，还让我在她脸上多画一些花。而她母亲也没有反对。其实，我是开心的。看到自己所画的得到认同，莫名的快乐。可惜，没拍到照片。

旁边这个柜台是这么久以来最漂亮的face painting counter。今天要face paint的人不多，都是一些比较斯文和小巧的Design，只有2个spiderman。不同的是，今天，不需要费力去问这些小孩要不要唱歌，不需要hit target只需要跟他们玩就行了。轻松。

比赛就是这样，哪怕你唱得多好，有多少人认为你就是冠军了，往往在最后一刻，你发现，冠军是别人。这多少也得看一些运气。虽然实力永远强于所谓的运气，可是，有时候，不得不承认它的存在。像这次，我也非常认为另一位妹妹有很好的实力赢取冠军，可结果却差强人意。希望她可以继续地唱，哪怕要做永远的亚军。


第一站：Hotel Sri Petaling. 第一次碰见他们的一天。在哥哥家住了２天。巴士是个mobile studio,里面有mini living room n mini studio。

（２）2nd stop in Penang - GurneyPlaza.　
那，我工作的情况。我的partner, AgathaLing 化妆师。而想偷懒的就坐在一旁看，哈。对，就是坐在后面的jolene。开玩笑。有的小孩很开心，有的却被他父母逼着去画的。有点可怜。　

右上角，是三胞胎。可爱吧。他父亲让我们做一样的design在他３个女儿身上。印象很深，都很乖。而左上角的是配合world cup而让他们画的。可笑的是，我们懂得国旗还真有限，早上吃早餐的时候，还会跟agatha聊，今天哪队对哪啊，再买份报纸参考他们队伍的国旗。而korea是我们会拒绝的，因为很复杂。啊哈。拍到的照片不多，因为都在公司的相机里，没办法拿。不过，算算，画过的小朋友因该有将近千多人。还有那还没计算的hanna tattoo.　


住的地方是附近的golden View Service Apartment. 为讨好员工，老板也特地带我们去喝酒。有的说老板很好，请这请那的，一直到malacca 站被骂后，却开始不那么认为了。哈。而我，其实还真不喜欢那样的方式，多于的举动更让人觉得做作，而谈好的却被怪罪至下，很不好受。

（３）第三站：malacca - MahkotaParade Pahalawan


conflicts最多的一站。也是我开始被骂的一站。但，很明显，有人从中作梗。因为我的工作很简单，画画从中说服小孩去唱歌，可就开始有人觉得我们太享受了。哈，原来有好多人想坐在我和agatha的位子上，所以，我们也开始做起之前条件没谈过的工作上。至于那几位作梗的，我想也没关系了。虽然我知道他们是谁。而工钱方面，原来比原定的多一倍，也没有事先通知；工作前原来所有人都有training 而我，好像没有，哈。而让我对一些事说不懂的时候，却被问“你没有training 吗？”要我怎么答？　哈哈。

hannatattoo一些简单可爱的设计。而较为大一点的小朋友，尤其是女生当然有一些较复杂像样的art design啦。这里，虽然不怎么快乐的一战，但是我最满意的一站，因为有hit到target。最后一天，最后一个参赛者，还是我和kumar去找来的。也很幸运可以遇到如此开通，坦然，直接的父母，匆匆替孩子填了表格便到录音室唱歌去了。非常记得这对父母，母亲是时髦漂亮高挑的女人，而父亲是稳重也搞笑的爸爸，而他们的女儿打扮漂亮，是个小美人。

（４）而之后的第四站就是johor Bahru Jusco.上个文章有谈了一番经 历重重 click: white 过去的黑

而这一个是最白痴的作品。我没有参与，不过只在一旁看笑话。毕竟，也是老板，我也没有和他赌hit target，所以我只是一直在笑。他是jess, 对，jessRoss. 很女人的名字。他告诉我们的理由是因为他的名字太长了，去申请IC的时候，格子不够装他的名字，结果那政府人员替他省略了一些，结果就变JESS。哈。

两个月的时间说长还真的不长。这天，是整个event的终点了。也是我收拾一切一切心情准备滚到180的最后一段时间了。感谢licia介绍我这份可爱的工作，那些在我outstation时候问候我的朋友们，还有让我乱画的小孩，被我发脾气的adrian，忽然说要送我上班的哥哥，特意来家里载我上班的eines and Bryan－出粮后请你们吃饭，还有在penang塞着车找我吃饭的chiayee。。。还有一直到我打电话说我在工作才知道我在JB工作的爸爸，哈。。很blur 吧。念了那么多年书，爸，我工作了啦。哈。

Electone Stagea

Urhgg.. my eye, again - infection. For sure i didn't open my eyes bigBig when i were sleeping lo. I wonder how it is happened.. but, it is not that serious like the time after exam la. 

Applying eyemore now - waiting for it to recover by itself.

however, my eyes couldn't get off from my lappy. Again i browse into yamahamusic.com. and i see this again Electone Stagea ELS-01 & 01C. Life time performance wor~ cool man. 

~ELS-01 (415 voices)
~ELS-01C (509 voices)

Rhythms
1) Loaded with Cutting-Edge Rhythm Patterns
~ELS-01,ELS-01C (274 patterns)
2) Variety and Performance

Registration Menu
1) From Pops to Symphonic, a Wide Variety of
Registrations for EachGenre
~ELS-01 (240 patterns)
  ~ELS-01C (300 patterns) Touch Panel LCD

Effects
1) Effects Add That Extra Something
~15 categories
~183 variations

Touch it once before during the Yamaha fair in MidValley. Me and yvonne went there for no reason. Managed to see it but having no money to own it at once. It is kinda... sakit hati! 
Since we couldn't afford to buy ELS-01, we went around and checked for the displayed electone's pricing. yet, we saw this - Stagea mini ELB-01. This is cheaper. 

Electone Stagea Mini ELB-01

Around 7k like that.. i think it might be cheaper now. But, still.. we din put any order.  

However, since i'm going to work, it is time to save money for this - EL 100. aha! i'm sure this is the best for poor people like me. it cost around 5k when i was in Form4. So, I think it is much cheaper now. but, i wonder if they are still selling this model. gotta check this out. 

EL-100

They are lots of people perceive it as unglamorous or unsuitable for girls to play though. However, I could tell you this ~ the satisfaction and enjoyment that one will experience are infinite. I'm not an expert, but i really enjoyed the time hanging around with my old old geh organ. Believe me and check out this 11 year old gal -

amzing right~ sweet

My heart ::::

Dreaming.. Hoping.. Imagining.. how good if i can have it as a present. (gotta post this big big in my PM) aha. Dreaming~ Someone!! throw me this!!

images retrieved from yamahamusic.com

baseOn TrueStory 两年前

因为朋友猜中一道问题的缘故，让我在笔记本里找东西可以送他，

看到了这两年前写的文章，随之也让它当上了奖品。

作者：stef, sailoon, yuching, joanne

<歉意>

窗外吹着阵阵的冷风，像许多冰形成的利剑一样，刺痛了我的脸颊，更刺痛了我的心。
“程俊，你过得好吗？”
一个永远得不到答案的问号，在我的心里不断地环绕着，眼泪也已不自觉地滑落两行。

“小姐，请问要上哪儿去呀？”亲切的司机以熟悉的马来语问我道。
“哦，我要回家，送我到文良港，谢谢。”我立即以两年没说的马来语轻声答到。
“好，那我们出发咯！”

十几个小时的机程累得我快喘不过气来。疲惫的身躯靠在的士后座的沙发上，完全放松。摇开车窗，徐徐的微风，迎面吹来。两年了，出国到澳洲深造已有整整两年了。但，家乡的味道依然没改变，空气依然是那么的清新。

“。。。。。。才知道有些感受，我和他谁都不曾说出口。。。。。。”

（手机响起宇恒“依然是朋友”）
“喂。。。。。。”“小悦哦，别忘了今天晚上的聚会啊！”

是阿强他们。他们知道我今天回国，特地要办个聚会来聚一聚。
“好，准时到。”我开心的道。随后，挂上了电话。
阿强、宋杨、凯特、恩熙、俊扬。。。。。。

他们是我的一班知己。我已经两年没跟他们碰面了，好期待今天晚上的聚会。

“碰”（酒杯碰撞的声音）
“小悦，几年不见又变漂亮咯！”
“对，对，对，卷卷的长发真是迷死人啊！”

朋友七嘴八舌地“讨论”着我。
但，心不在焉的我一直都把视线停留在餐厅的门口。
“他，会来吗？”我心理暗想着。
时间一分一秒地过去，他始终没有半个影子。
“程俊！”我突然破口而出。场面顿时一片寂静。
“程俊，他会来吗？”
大家眼神交接，似乎没有想要回答我的意思。
“程俊？那小子。。。。。。啊，不对，是学长。。。。。。”

场面似乎没有半点能喘气的空间。“阿强，到底想说什么？”

我的心有如热锅上的蚂蚁般着急。莫名的恐惧更扰乱了我的思绪。
“喂，阿强，不会喝酒就别学人家喝那么多嘛！”

凯特边扶着醉醺醺的阿强边道。
“我没醉。。。。。。告诉你，学长他疯了。

还不是你，小悦啊。。。。。。跟他分手，他才会疯啊！”
阿强说着。
我呆住了。
“怎么了？不相信？好，不相信的话就跟我来，我会证明给你们看的。走啊！”

阿强神气的道。
“阿强，他是认真的吗？”

我的心在挣扎着。但，我还是跟上去了。

朋友也跟上去了。

车子在一条熟悉的道路上奔驰着。是，没错。这一条路，的确是开往医院的路。

我望着阿强，心里不断猜疑着。

《平静医院》。。。。。。我的心跳停止了。这里。。。。。。
阿强满肚子气地把我们硬推进医院里。

然后更理直气壮地要护士小姐带我们去见程俊。
“好的。但，请你们安静些。我现在就带你们到程俊的病房。

请跟我来。”护士小姐道。

医院里刺鼻的药水味，让我没有了思考的能力；

走在白色的走廊间，我的脑袋一片空白。

前进的每一步是如此的沉重，拐过的每一个弯是如此的崎岖难行。

头顶上那刺眼的灯光，更让我觉得四周都布满了恐惧。

内心的恐慌侵袭了我的思绪，我的精神开始错乱了！

忽然，大家停下了脚步。场面鸦雀无声。

我缓缓地提起脚跟，屏住呼吸，一步步地朝那扇白色的门走去。
“到了。”我已经没有前进的空间了。

这一刻，我晓得，只要抬起头，朝门上的窗口望，一切的谜底就能解开了。
但，此刻的我却一直还在犹豫不决。
忽然。。。。。。“才知道有些感受，我和他谁都不曾说出口。。。。。。”

（宇恒的“依然是朋友”）耳边传来熟悉的歌声。我抬头了。

一个被紧绑着手脚的男生。。。。。。“是你，程俊”。

我抽泣了，泪水不停地夺眶而出。
“这一切都是事实吗？不对，一定是哪儿出了错。

拜托，告诉我，这一切都是梦、是梦。。。。。。”

“程俊，你还记得吗？”
一次的露营，让我的心烙下了你的名字，让我的爱慢慢地滋长。

那天，我迷路了。身上没有任何通讯器。

感觉就像那迷途的羔羊，失去了希望之光的引导。

忐忑不安的心情，让我急得像只无头苍蝇，措手不及。

豆大的雨滴不断地拍打在我的肩上。那一刻，我好希望你的出现。

但，那天你好像病倒了，似乎是不可能会出现在我身旁。我哭了。
天渐渐地暗了，我的心也渐渐地灰了。大雨一直下，我似乎无法再支撑下去了。

头好晕，心好乱。。。。。。突然，我被呵护着。

我的身体被抱得很紧，我的脑袋一片空白。

我听见了：“别怕，我来救你了。”
程俊，是你在我最绝望时救了我。

可是，此时此刻，这一切却牢牢地、深深地钉刺着我的心灵深处，隐隐作痛。

望着你还紧抱着我送你的礼物，我的心像被捅了几刀，流出百般愧疚的鲜血。
“对不起，程俊。是我害了你。”
那份礼物。。。。。。对，是我送你的最后一份礼物。

2005年12月25日，是我人生的第一大转折点；是我与你最后的一个夜圣诞，

也是我与你分手的那一天。
“程俊，这礼物是送你的。。。。。。圣诞节快乐！”
看着你深情与不舍的神情，我内心不停地挣扎着。

你没有半句话，也没有要收下礼物的意思。
“各位搭客请注意，前往澳洲的班机。。。。。。”
终于，我说了：“程俊，把礼物收下吧。

我们依然是朋友，我相信你会遇见比我更好的伴侣。”

你依然没有半句话。但，这一次你缓缓地递过了那份礼物。我走了。

“是我，是我那句话伤害了你。

阿强说得对，是我害了你。。。。。。对不起，程俊。对不起！”

我不停地咆哮着，不停地呐喊着。身边的朋友不断地抚慰着激动的我。
“程俊。。。。。。”
忽然，眼前一黑。我昏了过去。

窗外吹着阵阵的冷风，像许多冰形成的利剑一样，刺痛了我的脸颊，更刺痛了我的心。
“程俊，你过得好吗？”
一个永远得不到答案的问号，在我的心里不断地环绕着，眼泪也已不自觉地滑落两行。

你无神的双眼
仰望着无光的铁窗
面对无灵魂的你
我只有无限的愧疚
爱 没有对错
但 请记得
当爱离去时
请尝试丢掉伤心
当爱死去时
请尝试丢掉感情

*故事是sailoon给的；内容是我和友琴改编的，而文章是joanne呈献

爱 是把那扇属于你们的门打开; 一旦某一方突然关上了门,
那就别再硬要把它打开了
如果一切都在轮回; 那么是否代表,
曾经的互不相识
到谈天说地
有说有笑
相知相惜
也终有一天会互不相识, 如同陌路.

呈献当天的结束。sailoon, yuching, joanne你们都好吗？

rm15 for no reason 荒唐

spent a rm15 for a taxi from palmSquare to ss2. wasteful har. =.=
more than 2 hours i've been waiting for the bus and finally i decided to get a cab.
it's such a ridiculous jam when you found no reason of the jam.

no accident, no traffic police, no special 'gerakan'... so why it is a jam?

spare time in the taxi, the driver began to talk to me...
i know i gotta be very careful since i was alone in the back seat. 
as usual, i widen down the window little by little and gave him a simple
and quick answer to his question.
those politic issue and government thing-y are such sensitive issues to be discussed with a stranger and i dare not to talk much on it.
this driver seems to be an educated retired man and had a lot of bad issues among the 'special races' in the country.
Holding my mobile phone and i looked for his driver ID.
To my surprise, he has a 'bin' in his name.
it was a save journey back to my friend's house. paid the money and goodNight. 

though i was really alert when taking a cab but, what the driver told me make sense also.

and there's a horrifying incident during the time i was working in JB.
it was around 11.30pm, we all girls were taking a lift to get to our room for a rest.
and there was a big guy standing in the lift.
he asked my friends who are they and started to react weirdly.
"Do you all want any room Service?".... he asked. what the =.= 

there's  the time i realized why there are so many people warned me to be extremely careful in JB. cynthia took out her umbrella and said "NO."
all the girls quickly ran into the room. 

I wonder why.. we all, girls are the victims for these nonsense.
we should not walk alone in the dark because we are girls;
we couldn't wear nicely because we might get into trouble.... bla bla bla.
It is much secured if you are a guy.
a guy could walk by the mamak stalls at night.
a guy may go out in the morning and get home late at night.... don't you think there's lotsa privilege of being a guy instead of a gal? 

but, i know it is impossible for me to imagine how would i be if i am a guy.

Unless...reborn or "PLASTIC SURGERY"!! aha

Lydia 只有她了

一个人拥有的应该就只有那么多

倘若得到的比原定的多一些

之后的代价也会付得更多。

告诉我别再为以后想那么多

告诉我别再为明天的路想得那么远

说得并非没道理。

张嘴说不出话来

心里表达不出想说的

到底是哪里出了错。

想好好地停下来，然，放不下

想好好地站起来，然，没想法

不是不让别人的帮助

可想让自己再试一次

不是不懂你的意思

只想让自己试着面对

不是存心让你担心

只是在寻找一个封口瓶

我没有想象的那么勇敢

没有想象的那么了不起

只因那别人眼中的我

唯有斗胆伪装

请不要在逼我该怎么做

因为我根本不知道自己该怎么做

～喜欢这首歌，很旧，但很好听。她，lydia - 泰国人。

～喜欢她的唱腔，可以把泰文歌唱得让我接受的，目前只有她。

像她这么有能力唱歌的人

能挣的钱应该要比那些不能唱但却很红的歌手来得多才对吧。
只是，有吗？
一个人能拥有的真的都只能是上天赐的吗？

～推荐大家 - lydia =)

allBy Myself

Celine Dion Live in Boston

Its been such a long time when i first listen to her song, Coming back to me. Fall in love with her angle like voice. And that, i bought this - celine dion live in Boston 2010. Gotta check this out, it's awesome.

Shots that i love most.she is always the best.

All by myself - yea, a perfect song right in this moment. living alone talking to nobody yet the computer.and it exactly happens when you call and nobody picking up the phone. you realize you have only yourself but nobody else. 

When I was young I never needed anyone
Those days are gone Livin' alone
I think of all the friends I've known
When I dial the telephone
Nobody's home
All by myself Don't wanna be
All by myself Anymore
Hard to be sure Sometimes I feel so insecure
And loves so distant and obscure
Remains the cure
All by myself Don't wanna be
All by myself Anymore
All by myself Don't wanna live
All by myself Anymore


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Taking Chances - a song that i love most
Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beaten down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing like love to pull you up,
When you're laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.